April 18, 2009

  • So how does this thing called life work again?

    My brother just had a full-scale seizure, and is now in the emergency room. EMT just gave him a big dose of Valium, so we had to wait for him to wake up and come home. I'm taking the later shift while my mother is now waiting in the ER.

    Let me explain my standard of full-scale seizure. My brother is an epileptic, and he has his condition under control 99.9% of the time with medication. Most days he's normal, there are some days he would complain about headaches and body aches. That would mean the night before he was having a few minor twitches, but not enough to start shaking violently. Full-scale seizure is just shaking with foam around his mouth, just not waking up and unresponsive. He just had one of those around 11pm.

    This time he's just tired. He was offered temporary work on top of school, so he's just worn out. Know what not to do next time: No 24-7 slave labor with work and school.

    I have good faith that the medication is working, he just need to fall back to his normal routine with just school.

    'night.

April 7, 2009

  • 回頭太難

    今天再度重遇Amelia。  Amelia 離去後便是Kaity,而Kaity是二月被裁走的。

    我真的很掛念 Amelia,不過今天再度重遇她,我才明白回頭太難這道理。

    我以為我沒有變,變的只是身邊的人事,誰知道,變了的那個是我。

    我明白世界上沒有永恒不變的東西,可是我感覺到是時候離開這個我熱愛的地方了。我不知道離開會是甚麼時候,但是離心有了,決心該離我不遠吧。

    從前想着只要有熱誠就可以辦事,現在覺得很需要錢。

    從前想着只要願意努力和齊心,甚麼事我們都可以戰胜做到。現在很懷疑當老板拍我膊頭說沒有我不行的時候,是出自真心還是心理戰上的例行公事。

    從前想着就算是裁員,都是我的上司親自告訴我,是兩星期前通知。現在,有一小時,沒有保安員難為你已是萬幸。

    很感概...

April 5, 2009

  • Roller coaster ride

    Great.  Every time when I was about to throw my arms up and give up, there would be a sign showing up saying I shouldn't give up. 

    How can it be?  I have every last thing on my plate saying this isn't the way to go.  Even the tea leaves say so.  Why am I so obsessed?

March 31, 2009

  • If you could spend a day with any Xangan, who would you choose? What would your day be like?

    Cakalusa.

    Though I must say, the day would involve wisecracking and oh-snapping at one another, all day.

    I'm only thinking about Xangans I have yet to meet.  No offense for the ones I have met...are we doing lunch in 2 weeks?

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  • My teacher

    My high school music teacher passed away 4 years ago on this day.

    I am one of many, many students he rescued.  I cannot be more proud and honored to be one of his children.

    He probably knew this, maybe he never did.  He knew I was under tremendous pressure from my family.  What he probably didn't know was that it was up to a point where I was ready to commit suicide at the time.

    He offered a simple solution.  He handed me a pair of percussion mallets, and demanded that I'd show up for rehearsals Monday to Friday, 8:50-9:30, from September to June.

    When in a band, of course, there's more than rehearsal time.  Performances in school.  Performances outside of school as far south as Georgia.

    Band is a different turf from home or just school.  You have people who have your back when band disasters happen.  There are fifty of us, and our teacher showed us that if we stick together and work together, we will achieve great things together.  I may be really rusty or completely forgotten how to play, but the lesson of teamwork, I took that with me everywhere I go -- every workplace, every organization.

    Mr. Laurenzano, you are sorely, sorely missed.

March 24, 2009

  • Global, one world economy?

    Okay, Zach, we are heading towards a united global economy...only if Obama succeeds.

    A time for global action
    By Barack Obama
    Monday, March 23, 2009

    WASHINGTON: We are living through a time of global economic challenges that cannot be met by half measures or the isolated efforts of any nation. Now, the leaders of the Group of 20 have a responsibility to take bold, comprehensive and coordinated action that not only jump-starts recovery, but also launches a new era of economic engagement to prevent a crisis like this from ever happening again.

    No one can deny the urgency of action. A crisis in credit and confidence has swept across borders, with consequences for every corner of the world. For the first time in a generation, the global economy is contracting and trade is shrinking.

    Trillions of dollars have been lost, banks have stopped lending, and tens of millions will lose their jobs across the globe. The prosperity of every nation has been endangered, along with the stability of governments and the survival of people in the most vulnerable parts of the world.

    Once and for all, we have learned that the success of the American economy is inextricably linked to the global economy. There is no line between action that restores growth within our borders and action that supports it beyond.

    If people in other countries cannot spend, markets dry up -- already we've seen the biggest drop in American exports in nearly four decades, which has led directly to American job losses. And if we continue to let financial institutions around the world act recklessly and irresponsibly, we will remain trapped in a cycle of bubble and bust. That is why the upcoming London Summit is directly relevant to our recovery at home.

    My message is clear: The United States is ready to lead, and we call upon our partners to join us with a sense of urgency and common purpose. Much good work has been done, but much more remains.

    Our leadership is grounded in a simple premise: We will act boldly to lift the American economy out of crisis and reform our regulatory structure, and these actions will be strengthened by complementary action abroad. Through our example, the United States can promote a global recovery and build confidence around the world; and if the London Summit helps galvanize collective action, we can forge a secure recovery, and future crises can be averted.

    Our efforts must begin with swift action to stimulate growth. Already, the United States has passed the American Recovery and Reinvestment Act -- the most dramatic effort to jump-start job creation and lay a foundation for growth in a generation.

    Other members of the G-20 have pursued fiscal stimulus as well, and these efforts should be robust and sustained until demand is restored. As we go forward, we should embrace a collective commitment to encourage open trade and investment, while resisting the protectionism that would deepen this crisis.

    Second, we must restore the credit that businesses and consumers depend upon. At home, we are working aggressively to stabilize our financial system. This includes an honest assessment of the balance sheets of our major banks, and will lead directly to lending that can help Americans purchase goods, stay in their homes and grow their businesses.

    This must continue to be amplified by the actions of our G-20 partners. Together, we can embrace a common framework that insists upon transparency, accountability and a focus on restoring the flow of credit that is the lifeblood of a growing global economy. And the G-20, together with multilateral institutions, can provide trade finance to help lift up exports and create jobs.

    Third, we have an economic, security and moral obligation to extend a hand to countries and people who face the greatest risk. If we turn our backs on them, the suffering caused by this crisis will be enlarged, and our own recovery will be delayed because markets for our goods will shrink further and more American jobs will be lost.

    The G-20 should quickly deploy resources to stabilize emerging markets, substantially boost the emergency capacity of the International Monetary Fund and help regional development banks accelerate lending. Meanwhile, America will support new and meaningful investments in food security that can help the poorest weather the difficult days that will come.

    While these actions can help get us out of crisis, we cannot settle for a return to the status quo. We must put an end to the reckless speculation and spending beyond our means; to the bad credit, over-leveraged banks and absence of oversight that condemns us to bubbles that inevitably bust.

    Only coordinated international action can prevent the irresponsible risk-taking that caused this crisis. That is why I am committed to seizing this opportunity to advance comprehensive reforms of our regulatory and supervisory framework.

    All of our financial institutions -- on Wall Street and around the globe -- need strong oversight and common sense rules of the road. All markets should have standards for stability and a mechanism for disclosure. A strong framework of capital requirements should protect against future crises. We must crack down on offshore tax havens and money laundering.

    Rigorous transparency and accountability must check abuse, and the days of out-of-control compensation must end. Instead of patchwork efforts that enable a race to the bottom, we must provide the clear incentives for good behavior that foster a race to the top.

    I know that America bears our share of responsibility for the mess that we all face. But I also know that we need not choose between a chaotic and unforgiving capitalism and an oppressive government-run economy. That is a false choice that will not serve our people or any people.

    This G-20 meeting provides a forum for a new kind of global economic cooperation. Now is the time to work together to restore the sustained growth that can only come from open and stable markets that harness innovation, support entrepreneurship and advance opportunity.

    The nations of the world have a stake in one another. The United States is ready to join a global effort on behalf of new jobs and sustainable growth. Together, we can learn the lessons of this crisis, and forge a prosperity that is enduring and secure for the 21st century.

    Barack Obama is president of the United States. A Global Viewpoint article distributed by Tribune Media Services.

March 23, 2009

  • Get a life

    A sign that I need to get a life: I can hear voice of person writing the e-mail with every emphasis of each syllable.

March 22, 2009

  • Overreacting

    An invisible hand on my shoulder, a voice inside my head, though I swear that I heard whispered in my ear, "You're overreacting."

    So true.  This isn't the first time, and sure won't be the last.

    Practice on walking it off...

March 20, 2009