Wow, I don’t even know how I manage to stay away from Xanga for almost 18 months.  A lot has happened in my life, but a few things didn’t change.

1. I love John Fugelsang.  There, I said it.  Seriously, he saved my faith in Christianity.  I was going to walk out the door of my church and never come back, but John’s standup routine saved my faith.  Check him out on gritTV.
2. Still a big believer of “Coding is not complicated…“
3. Unfortunately, still standing by “What else can be said?“

Wow, it’s two months already.  I didn’t know why I stayed away for so long.

I was on Facebook for a while, with my public and full identity.

Still, I appreciate the anonymity.  I really don’t want to be two faced, but I’m feeling the pressure of real life, and it’s nice to have this escape.

最愛那個通常都不是最終陪伴自己那個
有時候未必不是一件好事
沒有那種浪漫暇想
慢慢學會欣賞對方
就是下半生

這夜心情很複雜
你到底是我的誰
是朋友
是上司
是同事
是陌生人
我該知道你的甚麼
不該知道你的甚麼
很複雜很複雜

人要抱住隨緣的心態, 但勤奮的上進心。無論是工作上, 或是愛情上。一段感情要不斷自我增值, 學習相處和如何維持。不過假如只要有一方已不想再進步下去, 就要接受緣份的短暫。

陳芷菁

競爭對手 王力宏

我的寶貝 寶貝 要如何愛你
愛到底 傷到底 還不分離
愛上 對手 嘗盡委屈
我怎會死心塌地
哦 愛是一齣戲 看誰都是迷
我們拿出最好的武器
拿心撐住你 拿夢圈住我
沒有一樣東西不華麗
不管承諾有多少外衣
不管是否有什麼意義
我們總是全心全意

哦 葬了多少心 撲了多少空
回到戰場總讓人窒息
為你演情戲
答案全是戲
我卻不在你心裡
我們之間有多少毛病
愛人之間有什麼道理
There’s something waiting for me
(日子充滿殺氣)

你要的世界如今回不去
我想的未來竟然沒有你
無奈 無力 無語
我的寶貝 寶貝 要如何愛你
愛到底 傷到底 還不分離
愛上 對手 嘗盡委屈
我怎會死心塌地(怎麼會死心塌地 check)

Rap 競爭對手 牽著我的手
讓我一次明白你要的溫柔
不要都不說 不要都不做
不要千言萬語 徹底到寂寞
秘密會開花,嫉妒會結果
時間不會消滅愛人的怒火
瞬移的轉彎 愛情的深夜
何時才會真的下手

競爭對手 怎麼才放手
讓我一次推翻對抗的念頭
眼淚在顫抖 拳頭在軟弱
想要資本征服還是想退縮
好勝的決心 怕輸的易感
就算夾倒對手我能有什麼
無情不會寄托 濫情會犯錯
走錯方向更會墜落
(看不到那些回憶)

你要的世界如今回不去
我想的未來竟然沒有你
無奈 無力 無語(看不到那些回憶)
我的寶貝 寶貝 要如何愛你
愛到底 傷到底 還不分離(怎麼它還不分離)
愛上 對手 嘗盡委屈
我怎會死心塌地(怎麼會死心塌地)
可敬的對手（競爭對手）歌詞
我的寶貝 寶貝 要如何愛你
愛到底 傷到底 還不分離(怎麼都還不放棄)
碰上 對手 才會著迷
你不要轉身離去(你是個競爭對手)

很高興
要時常提醒自己
不要太貪心
他點名要訓練我呢
還想怎樣啊

…who knew it was people that were complicated?

I know this in the back of my head.  I just didn’t see it coming from the people who has the simplest thought process.  No I’m not talking about stupid people, I’m talking about people who do not think too much about office politics, who do not want to complicate things knowing damn well in this life that life in itself is complicated enough.

I am crossing my fingers that the unnecessary complications will go away.

All I really wanted was just an upward move for my career.  I know out of all people who’s going to help me, it just happens to be him.  I am so forever grateful in many many levels. For starters, it’s him.  Secondly, he thought of me when it comes to career development.  I see this as he is concerned of my career’s well being. I don’t really care what his true intentions are.  Using me?  Fine, I’m benefiting from the whole process anyway.  What we’re heading for right now it’s a gamble for both of our careers, but I’ve already places my chips on the same spot he’s betting on the table.  There is no turning back.

I think I can still afford to lose a few chips.  It’s going to be heart breaking, but I think I still can afford to lose this round.

For starters, drunk dialing is never ever a good idea.

The worst part is that the one who drunk dials you is your boss.  Your boss is upset with you that you and one other co-worker/supervisor of yours can actually cover everything he does.  He panicked because all the signs from workplace is leading to him getting laid off.

He kept hammering you thinking that you know he’s going but you’re not telling him, and you spent a good 20 minutes covering every turf he’s trying to cover, convincing him that you even know less than he does with what’s going on around the workplace.

Then he ended the conversation with “see you tomorrow,” and when tomorrow comes, he gives you the silent treatment and stopped trusting you with anything.

This cold war is going to be quite a while. *sigh*

有機會跟他共事了! 將會是很大挑戰, 還有人事部那邊不容易擺平, 不過如果表現好, 至少…至少他會對我刮目相看。

真的很感動, 沒想過他在經濟環境這麼差時, 他會想到保住我的飯碗…我真的很感動很感動…

要加班應戰了, 不能讓他失望。