Wow, it's two months already.  I didn't know why I stayed away for so long.

I was on Facebook for a while, with my public and full identity.

Still, I appreciate the anonymity.  I really don't want to be two faced, but I'm feeling the pressure of real life, and it's nice to have this escape.

這夜心情很複雜
你到底是我的誰
是朋友
是上司
是同事
是陌生人
我該知道你的甚麼
不該知道你的甚麼
很複雜很複雜

...who knew it was people that were complicated?

I know this in the back of my head.  I just didn't see it coming from the people who has the simplest thought process.  No I'm not talking about stupid people, I'm talking about people who do not think too much about office politics, who do not want to complicate things knowing damn well in this life that life in itself is complicated enough.

I am crossing my fingers that the unnecessary complications will go away.

All I really wanted was just an upward move for my career.  I know out of all people who's going to help me, it just happens to be him.  I am so forever grateful in many many levels. For starters, it's him.  Secondly, he thought of me when it comes to career development.  I see this as he is concerned of my career's well being. I don't really care what his true intentions are.  Using me?  Fine, I'm benefiting from the whole process anyway.  What we're heading for right now it's a gamble for both of our careers, but I've already places my chips on the same spot he's betting on the table.  There is no turning back.

I think I can still afford to lose a few chips.  It's going to be heart breaking, but I think I still can afford to lose this round.

有機會跟他共事了! 將會是很大挑戰, 還有人事部那邊不容易擺平, 不過如果表現好, 至少...至少他會對我刮目相看。

真的很感動, 沒想過他在經濟環境這麼差時, 他會想到保住我的飯碗...我真的很感動很感動...

要加班應戰了, 不能讓他失望。